It is Finally Thursday

Finally I got through the day.  The anniversary of my sweet brother's death.  I watched as lines grew long at Chic fil A and people quietly got their chicken and left.  I had a major doctors appointment today and after it was over, Buddy was going a different way home.  He said, "you know where I am trying to get don't you?"  I said, "no."  I was hoping Golden Coral or Jasons, but he was going to Chic Fil A.  We had talked about it.  I had forgotten.  I had my mind on my brother.  How much I still miss him.  How much I hate cancer.  How much I want to scream everytime I see or hear the word.  MY mind simply was not on Chic Fil A.  But as we pulled into the huge winding line, I got involved.  I remembered.  I was proud to be there.  Then I got home and started reading all the hateful comments on the internet and again I wanted to scream.

Why is it that if I love Jesus, which I do and if I try to do what I believe He would want me to do, which I do, then why do people think that because I love Jesus and know that He loves me, that I hate those who are not Christians or don't do the "Christian thing" whatever that is.  They don't understand why I do love Him and I can't understand how they don't love Him.....it is a very confusing world.

Here is what I know.  I love my brother and he is no longer with me, he is with Jesus.  I know this becasue of our long talks those last months I was with him. Oh, he wasn't gushy about it, but he did love Jesus.  I miss him an incredible amount....still find myself trying to get a grip on life, yet just wandering blindly though it, searching for him.  He is where I am not  called to go yet.  He is with Jesus.  They are having long philisophical talks and Roy is trying to tell hin how to fix things so we can all be together.  But Jesus is not ready for all of us....so se wait.....we watch while people fight over stupid things and everyone wants his right, which of course conflicts with my rights and there the problems begin.

Roy was  Deomcrat......I hesitate to think he would be happy with the way the government is being run now.  No, I don't think he would jump ship and become a Republican, but I do think he might partake of a nip of tea!

Pictures are on the way....and we are going to take up where we left off....just had to get past August the 1st....my least favorite day of the year.  It is now over and has been for 38 minutes. 

Will figure where we left off and get on it again....meanwhile just a little photo to whet your appetite......

He says what is the big deal about Chic Fil A.....so the CEO supports man woman family......and they want to close him down for that.....world is getting gooffier daily.......and likely to be even more goofy in the future......And not only that, but they traded Steve Nash to the LA Lakers.....I cried....real tears.....I don't like the Lakers, but I do like Steve Nash, so I will follow them......

Many more stories to tell......stay tuned.

Tomorrow is the Anniversary of the saddest day of my life

Going to start blogging again.  I detest it when August 1st rolls around.  I am once again overcome with grief, love, shock, memories and all other kinds of foreign emotions.  I am always glad to see the 2nd of August roll around.  Then the 7th and I can say happy birthday to me and begin a year again of trying to finish this blog. 

There are so many things to tell.  And I truly thought it was only for me to vent, but I have learned that it has meant a lot to others as well.  So I am going to start again.

First of all I don't think Roy would like the political climate...yes he was a die hard bleeding heart liberal, but I don't think this is what he had in mind.  Surely would like to talk to him one more time and ask him.

It is late....I am whacked....I am going to bed.  I will take up where I left of....I will finish the blog....but you all have to help me.....give me input, make comments....sometimes I feel I am just talking to my self... which isn't all bad I suppose....but would rather have some company on this journey.

Rest well....get ready....got stores, and blogs, and facebooks, but no twitters......but still have plenty to do.....hang with me......and together we can do it.