I really want to work on this blog. I really want to make it something. I have so much to write about Roy for example, which is why I began this journey in the first place, but I have said it before and I will say it again...It has simply been too painful. How long should one grown woman grieve over the loss of her little (4 years younger but 6 inches taller) brother? I do not know the answer to that question. It has been 7 years, and the grieving goes on.
Little things...like a song on the radio or seeing a teal colored jeep or going somewhere and seeing someone who, from the side, looks just like him...hair, glasses, nose; the way he leaned; the way he moved his head. I mean everything! My breath stops momentarily and I race in my mind to go hear him laugh, then he turns just a bit and it is not him....I knew it wasn't, but for just that brief moment it was.
But, tonight I am not going to talk about that. I am going to talk about my love for making jewelry and why. As soon as I wrote that I realized that it leads right back to Roy...so I am going to talk about something else....
I have been putting things on eBay once again. I remember why I quit eBay in the first place. I have a love/hate relationship with them. I love selling and I hate packing and shipping. But, in this business you can't have one without the other, so what is the answer? Well, I don't know, I will think about it and get back to you on that one. That reminds me that I have six things to ship tomorrow for sure...and I hope more sell tonight as I sleep as it is a really good feeling to awaken and find out you made money while sleeping. But, if I sell more then I have to ship more, so you see the problem.
I am almost through with the complete and I do mean complete reorganization of my studio. And I am almost ready to start making jewelry again. I am going to take a couple of photos of my organizational doors when I get them complete (I am sure you can hardly wait), but I really can hardly wait. I used to buy jewelry to tear up and make new jewelry. But, I ran into a real problem. I never could bring my self to tear it up. But I kept right on buying it. Found myself with a LOT of old beautiful pieces just hanging around.
Last April I went to Florida and my friend (bff as the young people say) and I went "thrifting" one day. I found a really neat place that was selling jewelry really cheap. I bought loads of it, to you know, tear up and make something new and cool. I made up my mind that this time I really would do it and when I got home I sat down, put my hand in the sack and said, "Whatever I pull out I will tear down. I will begin." And, I did just that. Well, to make another long story short, I tore it all down. Then I began on everything I had gotten for the last seven years (I will tell you, I promise about why I started buy it in the first place and oh yeah, why all the stones and gems and pretty things to make jewelry out of from scratch) but I digress.
I have bought more (but I tear it right up) because I am going to make these really neat pieces that I have in my head and it seems all I have done since April is buy and tear up and organize...but I am almost there. No more buying.....
Oh yeah, and in the middle of all of this my other bff came out here from Texas and spent two weeks with me and redid my deck, my guest bath, my upstairs bath and various and sundried other things to make my home really cool looking with everything she did. It was a little like "shake and bake," she did it and I helped. Then in July we had the annual reunion of the five of us from high school. At my house...my newly decorated updated changed around house.... they stayed a week. Spent many hours on the deck...they drank wine and smoked cigarettes ... I drank tea and chatted...I drove them all over town and they shopped...and shopped....and shopped.
Really an interesting group of women. Personalities all over the place. Opinions (different) all over the place. Political opinions and world news events opinions...well I won't even go there. But, I will at some point...at some point I will have just had enough and have to let it go....that must be what blogs are for. You can just let your feelings go all over the place and no one even knows. Hardly!
I am going to put up some Pinterest stuff here....I am going to turn this into a place where people race to so as to find out what bonnib is saying, thinking or doing now. Excuse me, I just had a sudden spurt of what ifs cross my mind and the next thing I knew I had written this....
Moving on....going to see Joseph Prince in November in Dallas, TX and I can hardly wait. He is my Pastor now. I know that is a little weird, him being in Singapore and I being in Nashville, but that is the way it is. He teaches the Word and is the second most anointed person I have heard. Catch him on TBN or Daystar...you won't be sorry.
Also, my friend and at one time employer, Joseph Bias is really teaching the Word on his site....get his daily devotional as well...he is in Tulsa, OK...and is the best singer of "It Is Finished," that I ever heard....I really have to get cd's, my cassette tapes are shot.....
Begin to look for more on Joe, Pastor Prince, jewelry making, ebaying and of course Roy....why does one wait until one is nearly 70 years old to start all of these things in her life? I now have so many passions and so little time....oh and I like writing to myself...therefore I started a blog! And as usual, I don't even reread what I have written...if I did, it would never get published....
See ya'll later.
Shalom,
Bonnie
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